So, this is my hundredth post, and I’m going to go ahead and use it to reflect on this whole blogging thing. I talked a lot in the comment thread here about what a rewarding experience blogging has been, but it deserves to be said again.
It’s stunningly hard to just sit down and start writing, to fling my ideas and my words out into the universe. Up until a few months ago, nobody got to see what I wrote, ever. Even if I was pleased with it, I’d be worried it wasn’t perfect enough, and so I’d refuse to let it see daylight. Forcing myself to write anyway, and to hit publish anyway, every single day, has…not made it any easier at all, actually. It still takes effort for me to open up wordpress and start writing that first sentence.
But once I’ve started, it’s gotten so much easier. Maybe I shouldn’t be admitting it, but I hardly have to revise any more. When I first started, I wouldn’t realize what I was trying to say until I got to the end of my post, and I’d write the thesis statement as the conclusion, and then I’d have to start all over again. It usually took me another draft to get it all organized properly as well. But now, it all comes out the way I want it to the first time. Oh, I’ll fiddle with sentences as I’m writing them, but nothing on the scale of moving paragraphs around or starting over completely– I’ve gotten better at thinking things out beforehand.
I think I underestimate the amount of time I spend blogging, actually, because so much of my daily life is taken up by thinking about blogging. I’ll write and rewrite whole paragraphs (or even posts) in my head long before I ever sit down to write them. Plus actually watching and reading everything takes a lot of time– especially since half the stuff I come across doesn’t really inspire me to write about it!
But then again, I was going through all these thought processes anyway. I’ve talked before about how engaging with a new piece of media always causes me to critically evaluate what I’m seeing; the only different is that now I write down what I think. (My friends and family are probably grateful– I used to drive everyone crazy, deconstructing movies in the car on the way home).
I’m a person who isn’t comfortable not saying what I’m thinking, so even if it’s still a little nerve-wracking hitting “publish” every day, it’s so rewarding to have my thoughts out there. To all the people who read: thank you so much for letting me get this all off my chest. And especially for those who comment, thanks for much for letting me talk even more! I’ve actually learned a lot from the comment threads here and I’m hoping some of you are learning too (or at least being entertained).
Unfortunately, since I’m writing this in the afternoon, well-rested and well-fed, that’s as sappy as I’m getting. No curse words this time around– sorry, everyone! Maybe when I hit 200 I’ll write my self-congratulatory post at 2:00 (a.m.) and it’ll be more sentimental.
And now, for the STATS!
- 4,908 total views
- Days since blogging began: 89
- Busiest day: August 24 – 170 views
- Average views per day: 59
- Top three search terms: “zane eureka”, “gender goggles”, and “how many camels am i worth”
- Top three posts: Babylon 5, Doctor Franklin, and “food plans”, Babylon 5, “Confessions and Lamentations,” and what it means to be mysterious, and Oh, brother…Sex Drive, comedies, and sexist tripe
- 145 tag categories
- Rants: 7
- Critiques: 47
- Movies: 24
- TV: 22
- Video Games: 7
- Books: 7
- Babylon 5: 10
- 186 spam comments
- 299 approved comments (who wants to be #300?)
- 100 POSTS! WOO!